tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-74656500587346793102024-03-19T15:38:31.880-07:00Ramblings Of a 27 Year Old DreamerObsession. Addiction. Passion.
My opinion on books I love to read.
"Reading is everything...Reading gives me something to talk about later on... Reading is escape, and the opposite of escape, its a way to make contact with reality... Its a way of making contact with someone elses imagination after a day that's all to real... Reading is grist. Reading is Bliss". -Nora EphronAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.comBlogger30125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-79562085605492119652014-02-18T14:12:00.001-08:002014-02-18T14:12:22.702-08:00SnowFlakes & FanFictionSnow. Snow. Snow. Ugh. You would think living in New England, I would be used to the snow. Every winter, we get it. And every winter I bitch about it. I hate it. I wish it was summer here all year around. Usually I can deal but recently it has legit been snowing like almost every three days. Like seriously! Can't I catch a break. The only positive aspect of the snow is that it is helping me get over my anxiety of driving in crappy weather. Talk about grabbing the bull by the horns. Its not like I have a choice. I have to drive to work and class. It sucks. I'm at the point now were at least my knuckles aren't white from gripping the steering wheel so tight. <br />
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So class got out early today because of the snow. Yay, early release day. Boo to campus shutting down and everyone making a mad dash to the parking lot and causing mad traffic.<br />
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So since I can't read anything without becoming obsessed, I was talked into trying my hand at my first ever fan fiction. So if you actually read my blog. Which I doubt any one does. You would have read, how I am now addicted to this new series by CL Stone called The Academy. If your interested in reading the series I recommend you DO NOT read my fan fiction. It doesn't give a lot away but I do not want to be blamed for giving away spoilers or anything.<br />
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okay... so here's my fan fiction. Mind you I wrote this after I read the first five books. Also be nice, as its my first attempt at ever writing fan fiction. Feedback is much appreciated. Also its rated 18+ for mature content!<br />
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Why, oh why, did I open my big
mouth? I know I wanted to be included as a real member of the team, but this is
torture. I can see Gabe in front of me and his bright orange ribbed tanked top
is soaked with sweat and sticking to his back. I know if I had the time to stop
jogging and check out my own appearance that I would cringe. I can feel sweat
dripping down my back and down the back of my thighs. I have no one to blame
though but myself… okay well maybe Gabe and Luke too, there such bad
influences. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I can’t believe I let them
talk me into playing that prank on North. I knew something would go wrong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>April fools jokes are supposed to be
fun.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I didn’t think North would actually
hit Luke. I mean it was really funny until North hit Luke. I guess we took the prank
too far when we said we crashed his motorcycle. And maybe I shouldn’t have let
Gabe put fake wounds on me with makeup. I don’t think I’ve ever seen North look
so scared, and then so angry. North thought I was actually hurt, and worse he
thought Luke and I wrecked his bike. I was just about to yell April Fools with
North swung and socked Luke in the face. Poor Luke, at least nothing broke, but
his nose was still bleeding. When Luke finally told North our prank, North and
Kota were not happy. Hence the one hour. </div>
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When I opened my mouth and said I
thought that I should participate in the one hour Kota gave the team, I didn’t
expect it to be so hard. We’ve got to be at almost three miles. We’ve been
running the trails behind Kota’s house for at least thirty minutes probably
more. I wonder if this is the pace they normally run at or if they’re slowing
it down for me. I can hear Victor running behind me and he’s breathing pretty
heavily, that makes me think that this is their normal pace. I haven’t opened
my mouth once to complain. Even if I wanted to, I don’t know if I could because
of how heavy I’m breathing. Gabe seems to be having as much difficulty as me,
but we’re all keeping up and not once had anyone fallen behind. </div>
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Kota takes the path that veers left
and I assume he’s going back to his yard. Thank God. </div>
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I keep moving one foot in front of
the other until the woods fades away and Kota’s house comes into view. I am
desperately hoping for a water break, but I don’t think Kota the drill sergeant
is going to allow this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Whatever it
takes. I keep telling myself I would do whatever it takes to get them to trust
me like I trust them. If I have to do an hour with them, I can do it. I will do
it.</div>
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The guys line up in the grass like
they’ve done this a thousand times. Its Kota followed by North, Nathan, Silas,
Luke, Gabe, myself, then Victor.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
probably should have been at the end, but Victor insisted I go in front of him.
<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“Just copy us Princess” Victor whispers
next to me. I see the guys all sit down in a line so I do too. I really like
the work out gear Victor bought me from Victoria’s Secret when we went shopping
with Gabe. Even though it’s soaked with sweat, it still breathes. </div>
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The guys all lie down on their
backs, bend their knees, and lift their feet off the ground, crossing one ankle
over the other. Crunches formation. Great. I mean I know the guys all have
gorgeous stomachs but I guess I never thought of all the work it must take to
keep them looking that good. Just thinking about their bodies makes me hotter
than I already am. “One, Two, Three, Four”! Crap, I zoned out. I join in on
five and start doing crunches with the guys.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>When we get to fifty my stomach is on fire. I know North said I didn’t
have to do this, and that I could stop at any time if I got tired, but I feel
like if I quit that I would somehow be failing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I grit my teeth and breathe out harder as I count out loud to 75. Now my
muscles in my stomach are shaking and I don’t physically know if I can keep up.
How many is Kota going to make us do? I wish I asked what the one hour entailed
ahead of time. Whatever it takes. I told myself I would gain their trust no
matter what it took. I push myself to keep going, although I’m struggling too
much to count out loud. I sneak a glance over and notice Gabe looks like he’s
having a hard time counting as well, which makes me feel a little better. Maybe
I’m not that weak. </div>
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Finally I hear the guys count out
100 and they stop. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I see Victor stand up
so I follow suit. I honestly don’t know how much more of this I can take. And
it’s so quite. The only thing anyone has said since we started the hour has
been counting out numbers. Would I get in trouble if I tried talking? Hmm I
wonder. I’m not about to try and fail though. </div>
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“One, Two, Three”! Jumping jacks.
Anything is better than crunches, at this point my abs hate me right now. I
start doing jumping jacks with the guys. I don’t bother to try to count out
loud, at this point I just focus on breathing.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>When we get to 50 the guys stop. I quickly wipe the sweat from my
forehead before it drips in my eyes. Thank God, I listened to Luke when he told
me to tie my hair up high in a ponytail.</div>
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The guys go to the ground. Push up
formation. Oh no. I practically fall to the ground. Whatever it takes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>“One, Two, Three”. Oh man, my arms are
shaking and we’re only at ten. There is no way I can make it to 50 or 100 or
however many Kota is going to make us do. We get to 20, and I have to push with
everything I have to get up. I’m about to go back down but I see the guys stand
up. YES! I couldn’t have done another push up. I thought I was in decent shape,
but I just don’t have the arm muscles the guys have. I feel like we have been
working out for two hours. It has to be almost an hour. Every muscle and bone
in my bone is on fire. I hear “One, Two” and I want to cry, but I hold it in.
Whatever it takes. I start doing squats with the guys. </div>
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At this point I am just going
through the motions and thinking about everything I love about these guys.
Happy thoughts to help me power through this. I don’t even know how many squats
I’ve done. I’m thinking about Victor playing the piano, Kota counting while
he’s dancing with me, North and I looking up at the stars. I keep thinking
about Gabe washing my hair, and Silas and I cheering on the Red Sox. I’m
thinking about how it feels when I sleep in Nathan’s arms and about how happy
Luke made me when he brought me on a mission.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Whatever it takes. I will do whatever I have to. I snap back to reality
right when I hear the guys say 100. They all stop, so I do too. Everyone starts
walking towards Kota. Gabe, practically falls onto the ground and I quickly
follow him because it hurts to much to stand. All the other guys sit down as
well. We form a circle. </div>
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I have never felt so exhausted in
my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The guys are all sitting indian
style, but I just can’t. I lay down on my back and stare up at the sky while
taking deep breaths.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Princess, are you okay?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Oy Trouble, I forgot you were with
us, why didn’t you stop?”</div>
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I’m breathing really hard but I try
to answer them… “I’m…(deep breath)…fine. Didn’t…(deep breath)…wanna quit” <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know Victor and Gabe are right there but I’m
too weak to move and look at them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
shut my eyes for a minute and when I open them I see Nathan and Kota standing
over me. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Peanut, you shouldn’t have done
the whole work out, you’re going to be so sore”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Sang, if you’re sore later, I’ll
take care of it. Okay?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
I see Kota’s cheeks tint red, and I
want to ask what he means, but I’m just too tired right now so I just nod my
head. </div>
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I manage to sit back up, I don’t
want the guys to baby me after I made it through the work out. I can’t believe
I got through the hour with them. I feel like I am a little closer to being
part of the team. I see North and Silas come out of Kota’s house with waters. I
didn’t even realize they were gone. </div>
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North comes over and gives me a
water bottle.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Sang Baby, are you okay?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
I twist the cap off the water and
roll my eyes. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Yes North, I’m just tired but I’m
fine. I told you guys I can do stuff”. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
Luke comes over and raises his hand
for a high five. I slap his hand back and smile. I see Silas wink at me and
then he says</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
“Aggele mou, you did great, I’m
impressed you stuck it out the whole hour, you’re my tough little cookie”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
Kota snaps everyone back to
attention “Okay guys, does every one understand why we had that hour?”</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
There’s a round of grunts and
groans and a unified yes. “Okay then, you all know what your jobs are for the
day, get to it, and check in throughout the day” Kota says. </div>
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The guys all get up. I try to stand
and my legs protest, but I somehow manage to stand on my feet and hug the boy’s
goodbye. When I finish I’m left with just Nathan and Kota. </div>
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“Well, what’s my job today?” I ask
Kota</div>
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“Sang, you can barely stand, why don’t
we just go relax and cool off in Nathan’s pool. Sound good?” Kota ask.</div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
That does sound amazing. Cold water
to wash away all this sweat sounds like heaven. I smile and just simply nod my
head yes, in answer because I just feel so weak. Nathan smiles at me and wraps
his arm around my shoulder. </div>
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“Come on Peanut, I think I even
have some lounge floats in the shed that you can just float around on and
relax”.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></div>
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The three of us arrive at Nathans
house and change into our swim suits. When I come out of the bathroom Nathan
and Kota are already out back by the pool pulling floats out of the storage
closet in the shed. Nathan comes out of the shed with a blue mat float for him
and he hands me a black mat float. Kota follows him with a green mat float. I
figure each of the guys must have their own float, and I must be using North’s.
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The three of us spend the next two
hours rehydrating and just floating around the pool. </div>
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I make us some sandwiches for lunch
and after that I feel like I have some energy back. We go back in the pool and
I think I fall asleep for a little while because when I wake up on the float
the sun has moved in the sky. I look around and see the Kota is out of the pool
reading. Nathan is still in the pool on his float it looks like he fell asleep
like me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I try my best to silently slip
off my float. Kota notices me awake and I put my finger up to my lips so he
knows to keep quite. He arches an eyebrow in response, but doesn’t say anything
out loud. I tip toe my way across the pool towards Nathan. I sneak a glance at
Kota and I see him smirking. I get over to Nathan and he’s still asleep. I
quietly go underwater and swim under his float. I’m only going to get one
chance to do this so I want to do it right. I place my hand on his float and
push to tip it with all my might. Nathan goes over the side of the mat and
splashed into the water and goes under. I come up for air at the same time as
Nathan. I can’t help but giggle at the shocked look on his face.</div>
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“Peanut, I can’t believe you just
did that. My little mermaid is going to pay. You know you shouldn’t start
things you can’t finish”. I squeak and try to swim away but I’m not fast
enough. Nathan grabs me around the waist and throws me across the pool. I hit
the water and go under. I come up laughing and can’t help but smile. </div>
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“Kota come back in and help me” I
yell while trying to get away from Nathan. Kota jumps up and does a shallow
dive into the pool he comes up in between me and Nathan. I peak over Kota’s
shoulder and smile big at Nathan.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>“Peanut, if you think Kota can save you, you got another thing coming”
Nathan snickers. Nathan tries to dive around Kota but Kota matches his
movements. It’s like watching two animals circle each other. Nathan’s big and
strong like a lion while Kota’s sleek and quick like a cheetah.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It’s beautiful to watch. I can’t help but
laugh. I move when they move so I can stay behind Kota and away from Nathan. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nathan dives right at Kota, which surprises me
and Kota both. Kota goes over Nathan’s shoulder and then he gets tossed across
the pool. Next thing I know Nathan’s flying at me. I back up until I hit the
pool wall.</div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nathan comes up and places one arm on each
side of my head, framing me against the pool. “Peanut.” “Honey.” I whisper.
“Did you think you could flip my float and get away with it?” “Yea” I whisper.
I reach up with my hand and put my fingers to my mouth. Nathan instantly grabs
my fingers and puts them in his mouth. “Stop that, you know I hate when you do
that, peanut” “Sorry honey” I say.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>All
of a sudden I feel a hand on my foot. Kota pops up in between me and Nathan and
spits water at Nathan’s face and laughs. The sound of his laughter is
contagious and his smile is gorgeous, I can’t help but giggle along with him.</div>
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<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nathan just rolls his eyes at us, but he has a
big smile on his face. I don’t know how I got so lucky. These guys are all
incredible and constantly give me reasons to smile. Kota speaks up “So Sang,
how about a race? You think you can beat us?” he ask. “Let’s go” I reply.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We line up at the wall. “One, Two” I push off
on two. Kota and Nathan are fast there’s no way I’ll win unless I cheat. I
shoot into the water and do the stroke that Nathan taught me the first time we
went swimming. Next thing I know I see both boys coming up on my sides. They
both grab me and try to fling me backwards. I start flying backwards, but I
realize the knot in the top of my swim suit has come undone. It must have
gotten loose with all the horsing around we did. The backwards momentum is
enough to make my top come completely off. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
It happens in an instant and I’m
too slow to stop it. I see Nathan and Kota’s eyes widen. I know they’ve noticed
because they both freeze in their spots. I come up for air, but then dash back
into the water and make it to the other side of the pool first. I look back and
Kota and Nathan are still frozen in place. Nathan is twirling my bikini top
around his index finger with a smirk on his face. “Peanut, what are you going
to do now, you can’t get out of the pool without us seeing. See what happens
when you cheat”. I look at Kota and his cheeks are tinted red but his eyes are
lite with hunger. I get a great idea. “Well I won, so I could just ask for it
back and you’d have to give it to me” But I decide I feel brave. “But I don’t
want it back. Because I won, I want both of your swim trunk bottoms. We’re
going to skinny dip” I announce. I can feel my cheeks go red, but I ignore it.
We’re in the pool, and all high school kid’s skinny dip at least once in their
life right? I mean I’ve read that in books so I’m pretty sure it’s like a rite
of passage. </div>
<div class="MsoNormal" style="line-height: 200%;">
Both Kota and Nathans eyes widen. I
can tell I surprised them. Kota reaches down and pulls off his swim trunks then
throws them out of the pool. My jaw drops. I am shocked. I thought he’d at
least argue or make a joke. Nathan looks at Kota like he lost his mind. “What,
are you scared Nathan, or do you think Danielle is going to show up and tell
people your gay again?” Kota says while laughing. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nathan puffs out his chest and takes his swim
trunks off then throws them next to Kota’s. They both turn and look at me. I
turn scarlet. I reach down and pull at my bathing suit bottoms. I slide them
off and throw them out of the pool. I can see their emotions play out on their
faces. First shock, then lust. They are both looking at me with such love and
adoration. They both start to swim over to me. Kota is on my left, Nathan is on
my right. Kota comes up and puts his forehead against mine. He starts to nuzzle
me with his nose and my insides turn to fire. I feel Nathan pick up my hand and
put my fingers in his mouth. This sends a spark into my core. The sensations
are just too much. I let out a small moan. All of a sudden we hear a throat being
cleared. All three of us freeze…</div>
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To be continued… </div>
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So that's it. If you liked it let me know and you should def. check out CL's books! </div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-55457162423447637282014-02-17T17:08:00.001-08:002014-02-17T17:08:10.920-08:00I'll take nine over one any day ;) I have a new addiction.<br />
I have a bunch of books I've read that I should probably list, but all I really care about right now is my new obsession. It's actually kind of sad. I read through the series twice, I joined an online forum group to discuss it, and I have read all the spoilers and cheat sheets out there and I still NEED more! <br />
<br />
The Academy series by CL Stone is my new favorite series.<br />
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Okay so there's nine drool worthy guys. (that one line right there makes it totally worth the read)<br />
Anyways, The main character is a girl name Sang. She's 16 and just moved into a new house. She meets her neighbor Kota and they become friends. The problem is Sangs mom is kind of pycho and thinks the world is out to get her. Sang's mom doesn't allow her to be normal. Sang ends up meeting Kota's other friends and they all instantly get along.<br />
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I don't really want to say anymore because I don't want to give anything away. But the books are So so so so SO so good. I love them.<br />
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Far warning, if your uptight and conservative you won't like these books.<br />
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Right now the books are pg-13 ish but CL (the author) states that as the series progresses they will eventually be for mature audiences. So fair warning people!<br />
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Its one of those series where you yell at your kindle while your reading it... you find yourself holding your breath or blushing. It's very captivating and constantly keeps you on your toes. It makes you route for something. You fall in love with all of the characters so quickly. Its easy to read and follow as while. And the story line is an intricate web. It's constantly surprising you. The anticipation that CL builds is unlike anything else. I love it<br />
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So that's my new thing.<br />
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I am also super pumped that many of my shows are finally coming back. Walking dead is back on... Thank God. Grey's comes back soon. Vampire Diaries started up again. I really needed my Damon fix. *sigh* He's gorgeous. Also in a month or so Game of Thrones is back...yay... Survivor starts again soon as well. I was getting really bored without all of my silly reality TV.<br />
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School is also kicking my ass. I am taking six classes and in my free time I just keep re-reading the academy or reading the fan fiction people have posted for the academy. I've never written fan fiction but I might give it a try. Anyways six classes basically means no life. Although my bestest friend and I are going to the spa for the first time this friday. We are getting massages and mani-pedi's. I am so excited. I have never been and I feel real fancy. It's like in the movies. I cannot wait. I almost feel like I am being punked, because I don't get to do nice things like that.<br />
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So I've read a number of books since my last post. <br />
1. London Fairy Tale series by Rachel Van dyken<br />
2. Just remember to Breath by Charles Sheehan<br />
3. Reveled by You by Clarissa Wild<br />
4. The Mccarthy Series by Marie Force (I've read the first 6 books)<br />
5. Resurrection by Laury Falter (LOVE This series)<br />
6. A Neighbor from Hell Series by R. L. Mathewson (Also LOVE these)<br />
7. Slammed Series by Colleen Hoover<br />
8. Rome by Jay Crownover (MARKED MEN ... YES)<br />
9.Iron fae series by Julie Kagawa (Original, LOVED it)<br />
10. Dear Sir I'm Yours by Joley Sue Burkhart<br />
11. Torn from you and With you by Nashoda Rose (Wicked good)<br />
12. Gentleman's Privilege by Meg Silver (risque)<br />
13. Tangled Beauty by K.L. Middleton<br />
14. The Guard by Kiera Cass (Love this series)<br />
15. Kaleidoscope by Kristen Ashley (LOVE anything by this author)<br />
16. Rebel Spring by Morgan Rhodes<br />
17. Sea Side series by Rachel Van Dyken (LOOOOOOOOOVE these boys)<br />
18. Ignite by R.J. Lewis (Great story)<br />
19. The Ex Games by J. S. Cooper<br />
20. The Academy Series by CL Stone<br />
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I have also bought some books that I have yet to read..<br />
The burn by Annie Oldham<br />
Sugar Kisses by Addison Moore<br />
Entropy by Addison Moore<br />
Fallen Crest High by Tijan<br />
Stalk Me by Jillian Dodd<br />
Prince of Wolves by Quinn Loftis<br />
Come as You Are by Theresa Weir<br />
So those books are on the to-read list!<br />
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Okay so I'm going to go be real cool and chat in the Academy forum! Laterrrrrrr. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-27457950271369449622014-02-06T18:17:00.001-08:002014-02-06T18:17:25.341-08:00Dance in your underwear Well today I had class. I am currently taking two courses on campus and four online. YES. Six classes in total. Am I crazy? Um yes I think I just might be. Anyways. One of my on campus classes is Latin Dance. I needed to take an art class. And I cannot draw or paint or sketch for shit. Thus the dance class. Its actually kind of fun though. On the downside, it made my realize how out of shape I am. I have to stretch and I am not as bendy as I used to be. Also you have to deal with dancing with everyone in the class. This includes the people who smell and who have sweaty hands. Other than that learning the salsa and all the other Latin dances is actually fun.<br />
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Taking this dance class makes me want to get into shape or to at the very least take more dance classes. I would love to learn to line dance or to take a zumba class. The only thing that sucks, is I feel like there's nothing close to where I live, and sometimes I'm to lazy to drive somewhere to work out. I would love to have an elliptical machine at my house. I think when yard sale season starts up again, I'll go on the hunt. <br />
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But since I started this semester with a nutrition course which means eating better and a dance class which means more exercise, it makes me want to be healthier. Maybe I can buy a work out video. Any one have one they recommend? I especially like stuff that involves dancing.<br />
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I am also pissed that its still "winter break" for most of my television shows. It makes me very bored. But alas, I should get back to homework anyways. So goodnight. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-71425899656680660472014-02-05T19:01:00.006-08:002014-02-05T19:01:58.306-08:00Wanderlust Myself. Wanderlust. That basically describe how I've felt since I was 13. It basically describes what I would like to do for my career. Now, some of you are repeating the word Wanderlust over and over in your head, and saying what the hell does that mean. Well let me break it down for you so you can stop questioning yourself. <b>Wanderlust is a strong desire for or impulse to wander or travel and explore the world, to discover one's existence. </b>Sounds great doesn't it. Wanderlust. Even the word itself just leaves me feeling hopeful and giddy.<br />
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Now I am your average twenty something trying to figure out life. I ramble, I dream, I read, I write. I keep going through each and every day trying to figure out life, trying to figure out myself. Who am I? What do I believe in? What do I want? Well honestly I don't really know. I feel like I change my mind on a daily bases. I feel like that's what your suppose to do though when your young. In your early twenty's and in your teens, your suppose to question everything, your suppose to make mistakes, your suppose to figure out who you are. My problem is at 17 you make one of the most important decisions that shape your future, and I'm sorry but at 17 you know nothing. Now I remember being 17, and I remember thinking I knew EVERYTHING. But boy was I wrong.<br />
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How do you decide at such an innocent age, what you want to do with the rest of your life. You have to decide if you want to go to college. Where you want to go to college. If you don't attend college do you move out? Do you live with your parents? Since your not in school what do you do for a full time job? Or my problem, what do you want to major in?<br />
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Such important decisions for such young people to make. Even at twenty three I constantly question what I want to do never mind 17. So recently people have been nagging me. You know the real "adults" aka parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles, older cousins. Their all on my case. When are you going to graduate college. What do you want to be? What kind of job do you want? Whats your major again? How much longer do you have? How are you going to pay off your student loans? I try to bite my tongue and give them civil yet honest responses. But honestly all of these question started to make me question myself.<br />
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Who am I? Well I am on the verge of being twenty four. I am still taking college courses for business at the community college. At the end of this semester I have the maximum number of credits that I can transfer to a four year school. I am a waitress. I am a sister, a daughter, a granddaughter. I am a Boston sports fan. I am addicted to my kindle. I enjoy writing. I love traveling. I have an obsession with bad reality TV. My favorite color is green. I hate when people take advantage of defenseless people, like children or the disabled, or animals. I cry when I watch anything with troops returning home from overseas. These things I know. These things have never changed. I can define myself by constants like that. But in the long range, what do I want to do for the rest of my life, I struggle.<br />
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So recently I started to think about it. I mean really think about it. Because lets face it, I'm not getting any younger and I need to make a move now. So I got to thinking. I am studying business because its a degree which you can use for a number a jobs. But I really don't enjoy it. If I had my way I would major in Writing or English or Forensics or Psychology. Those types of things are what interest me. But realistically those degrees don't translate well in the job world. There aren't that many jobs that I could get with those degrees. So Instead I thought what else do I like. Well I like to talk. I like to party. I thought of being an event planner. Or working in a hotel or a casino. These are jobs that I think would hold my interest and that I would also enjoy. But really I would love to write and travel. So I thought how could I ever find a job and do both. Is writing travel reviews a job? I looked it up and it is. Its a hard industry to break into, but it is indeed a job.<br />
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So I at least figured out that I'm going to get my degree in Business Hospitality and Tourism Management. I at least feel like I figured out another part of myself. I thought back over the year about experiences that I really matured and learned about myself as. And my trip to London and Paris was very eye opening in educational. I adored it. I don't think I have ever felt so alive. I have always wanted to visit the places we learn about in history class. Visit the places you see in the movies. Lay on those sandy beaches you see in the commercials. Ever since I was in middle school I wanted to explore. Wanderlust.<br />
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If I could get a job and travel I think I would be in love. Even if I worked on a cruise ship or at a resort. Seeing different cultures. Experiencing new things. This is what makes me happy. This is where I thrive. The only problem with this is how do I gain experience? People keep telling me to travel while your young. How? Travel cost money. I am a broke college student. I would love to travel and then write about it here int his blog, in hopes that one day someone will read it and a job will come of it. Wanderlust.<br />
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Eh so many things in the life of a twenty something just trying to figure out life. I know I didn't even mention books in this post that I've read. But I really just needed to ramble and vent about life. So thus the post above. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-64584010245260690522014-01-11T17:50:00.001-08:002014-01-11T17:50:20.845-08:00Reading or Writing?This past semester has been so busy. I think I stressed myself out to the max. I think stress basically sums up my entire 2013. Whether I was dealing with illnesses or death of people close to me, or hitting the books, I was constantly in a battle last year. I feel like I spent the entire year in an emotional over drive. I think that's why I was able to read so many books. Because reading gave me an escape. It gave me a brief period of relief, because it allowed me to forget. I love that feeling of being so consumed in a book that everything around you ceases to exists. I'm one of those people who can read in a loud room and still totally zone out. I am guilty of bringing my kindle to the dinner table and people having a full conversation with me without me even noticing. Reading is my addiction, but I don't care because it keeps me sane. <br />
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I honestly don't even know how many books I've read since I last posted. I've finished entire series. I'm basically just going to list what I can:<br />
1. The Velesi Trilogy by L Fillon<br />
2. The Mortal Instrument Series by Cassandra Clare<br />
3. Blackwater by Tara Brown<br />
4. The Battle of the Labyrinth by Rick Riordan<br />
5. What Happened to Goodbye by Sarah Dessen<br />
6. Lock and Key by Sarah Dessen<br />
7. Vampire Academy Series by Richelle Mead<br />
8. Along for the Ride by Sarah Dessen<br />
9. Untamed Hearts by Melody Grace<br />
10.Unafraid by Melody Grace<br />
11. Someone Like You by Sarah Dessen<br />
12. Haven by Laury Falter<br />
13.Guardian Trilogy by Laury Falter<br />
14. Residue Series by Laury Falter<br />
15. 3AM Kisses by Addison Moore<br />
16. Three for me? by R G Alexander<br />
17. PODS by Michelle Pickett<br />
18. RULE by Jay Crownover<br />
19. The Daly Way Series by Brynn Paulin<br />
20. Colorado Mountain Man series by Kristen Ashley<br />
21. Love Slave for Two y Tymber Dalton<br />
22. Alice in Zombieland by Gena Showalter<br />
23. Fantasy Heights Series by Meg Silver<br />
24. Sometimes Never by Cheryl Mcintyre<br />
25. Through the Zombie Glass by Gena Showalter<br />
26. The Watchers series by Veronica Wolff<br />
27. Fire Spirits series by Samatha Young<br />
28. Unleashed by Cherrie Lynn<br />
29. The Selected Series by Rebecca Hope<br />
30. JET by Jay Crownover<br />
31. Desire series by Kailin Gow<br />
32. The Bet by Rachel Van Dyken<br />
33. A Seaside Novel Series by Rachel Van Dyken<br />
34. Ruined by Rachel Hanna<br />
35. Power Tools Series by Jayne Rylon<br />
36. Noctalis Chronicles by Chelsea M. Cameron<br />
37. Bad Rep by A Meredith Walters<br />
38. Full Count by C A Williams<br />
39. Rocked Under by Cora Hawkes<br />
40. Xtreme Adventures Series by Vivian Arend<br />
41. The Saving Angel Series by Tiffany King<br />
42. The Wager by Rachel Van Dyken<br />
43. With Me in Seattle Series by Kristen Proby<br />
44. Dark Secrets Series by A M Hudson<br />
45. The Empire Chronicles book 1: Soar by Alyssa Rose Ivy<br />
46. Allegiant by Veronica Roth<br />
47. Sweet Surrendering by Chelsea M Cameron<br />
48. The Famished Trilogy by Annie Walls<br />
49. The Single Lady Spy Series by Tara Brown<br />
50. Club Sin Series by Stacey Kennedy<br />
51. Morganville's Vampires Series by Rachel Caine<br />
52. Surrender Series by Melody Anne<br />
53. Reign of Ice L P Dover<br />
54. The Dweller Series by David Estes<br />
55. The Country Saga by David Estes<br />
56. Shadow Falls Series by C C Hunter<br />
57. The Longest Ride by Nicholas Sparks<br />
58. First Kiss by Tara Brown<br />
59. The Uglies Trilogy by Scott Westerfeld<br />
60. Long After by Cheryl Mcintyre<br />
61. Up In Flames by Nicole Williams<br />
62. Mackenzie Family Series by Lilian Hart (only part way completed)<br />
63. Bounds of Passion by Lucia Jordan<br />
64. She's Gotta Be Mine by Jenifer Skully<br />
65. House of Renwick Series by Rachel Van Dyken<br />
66. Sink or Swim by Jamie Canosa<br />
67. Hollywood Heat by Keely Eve<br />
68. Madly Series by M Leighton<br />
69. Friends with Partial Benefits by Luke Young<br />
70. Thompson Sisters Series by Charles Sheehan ( Still haven't read the last one)<br />
71. Taste of Darkness by MAria V Snyder<br />
72. Ivan by Roxie Rivera<br />
73. Beautiful Obivion by Addison Moore<br />
74. Shaken Not Stirred by Alyssa Rose Ivy<br />
75. Love Lies and Deception by L P Dover<br />
76. Blood Like Posion Series by M Leighton (still in progress)<br />
77. The PA's Revenge by Diana Fraser<br />
78. Falling Kingdoms by Rhodes<br />
79. Sexy Series by Dani Lovell<br />
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Thats all of the books more or less on my kindle that I've read. Clearly there are to many to review right now. If you would like a review on a specific series or book let me know and I will gladly give it.<br />
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So although my posting on this blog may be lacking, my book reading has still been going strong and so has my writing. I took a creative writing class this fall semester and got an A. It was one of my favorite classes because I think making myself sit down and actually write is the hardest part. Once I sit down and get an idea in my head I tend to take off. And writing actually makes me feel better its another way to deal with life. I use reading to escape but I think I use writing to cope. Writing things out sometimes helps me see things from a different perspective. I don't know maybe its silly but it helps me deal heres a short clip about anxiety:<br />
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 200%;">You’re
sitting outside on the trunk of your beat up car. The car, that always breaks no
matter how many times you service it a year. You curse the car to hell and look
up at the stars. The reason you came out here was because you just needed to
escape before you broke down in front of all those people. You feel like you
can’t breathe, yet every time you take a deep breath in and then let it out,
you have no trouble. Yet, still, you have that sense that you cannot get enough
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your heart pounding inside your chest. You feel nauseous and you can feel the
goose bumps starting at your toes and quickly making their way up your spine.
Your vision starts to blur on the sides and you get that tension headache that
throbs right behind your eyes. You swear that it can’t just all be in your
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</span>You look down at your blue jeans and focus on the stitching while you
take a deep breath to try and calm yourself. Next, your check your pulse, on
both wrist for good measure and then on your neck, just to make sure you’re not
having some sort of stroke and to make sure your blood is still flowing through
your veins.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You ask yourself “What the
hell is wrong with me? Why do I have these attacks? Is it really all in my
head?” “No it can’t be”, you tell yourself. You know you can’t be crazy because
of your skin. You don’t know if its hives, shingles, eczema or what. You mind
is moving so fast. It keeps telling you a hundred diagnoses a minute. When did
you get like this? When did you become afraid of life? Anxiety is a scary
thing. Is it your fault? Is there something you do that sets it off? Or are you
just crazy? Well let’s be honest you are crazy, but you meant a different kind
of crazy.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12.0pt; line-height: 200%;">Eh just something I wrote for homework for class. Anyways the Patriots are playing in the playoffs right now so I think I'm going to go enjoy the game. I just wanted to post something new since its been months. I apologize to my fans out there. (which probably consist of my 1 friends, who is to busy to actually read this consistently so she prob didn't even notice I stopped posting). Sigh. </span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-33333627707773020692013-10-21T20:30:00.002-07:002013-10-21T20:30:49.737-07:00Miss You.So, I know I haven't written in a long time. BUT. Its because work and school have been occupying my time. I have kept reading and I have also started writing more because of my creative writing class. I will post a list soon of all the books I've read the last two months. Its honest probably like 40 something books. YES. I know I have a problem. Anyways, If your really into what I read, go look me up on GoodReads, I tend to keep my currently read books more updated on there than I do on here. Anyways I thought maybe I'd post something I wrote for my creative writing class. I've been missing my two grandparents that both passed away earlier this year so when I got this assignment I chose to write about when I found out my Grandpa had terminal cancer. I'm pretty proud of this piece and its completely original. All Feedback if Welcome.<br />
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">Recall an experience that changed
you. Write about it with one of the traditional openings of a story…</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">-Once upon a time</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">-Long ago and far away</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>In
the beginning there was fear. A fear so strong it paralyzed me. I couldn’t
move, couldn’t speak, and couldn’t cry. I couldn’t even form coherent thoughts
because of the terror that consumed me. I was taking completely off guard. One
minute I was cheering on the Bruins at a playoff game, the next minute I got
that phone call, and everything froze.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The other emotions in me were frozen, and only fear was present. I felt
a cold sweat quickly making its way up my back and goose bumps spreading up and
down my arms. This was far worse than being punched in the gut or having the
wind knocked out of you, this was like someone was taking away your air
indefinitely and you being to shocked to even try to stop them. I knew the
crowd around me was yelling, I saw people shouting and cheering, yet to me all
I heard was silence. It was like everything around me stopped, even my vision
was blurring around the edges. Someone walking in the row behind me sloshed
beer onto my head and it forcefully snapped me back into reality. My hands were
shaken and I struggled to control my breathing. I managed to glance up at the
jumbo screen and notice there was four minutes left in the period. Four. I used
to like the number four, but now I despise it. Four. Stage four. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the beginning there
was anger. Stage four cancer! How could this have happened? I wanted to yell, I
wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, at god, at my dad, at the doctors, at
anyone who crossed my path. My dad had called and given me that death sentence
over the god damn telephone! Rage, wasn’t a strong enough word for how I was
feeling. I wanted to hit someone and cause them harm. News like that shouldn’t
be delivered while at a sporting event or over the phone. My hands clenched
into fist, I could feel my blood starting to boil. How could doctors have
missed that? Do people really go from being in tip top shape one day and the
next day having stage four cancer? I wanted to tear everything apart because in
my heart I knew the answer was NO. The doctors had to have messed up. I wanted
people to hurt, I wanted people to suffer. Why does God make good people
suffer? I wanted to fly into the sky and give him a piece of my mind. I wanted
to turn my back on everything I believed in and continue down a war path of
rage and destruction. I was so angry I didn’t even realize I was being towed
along, back to my car in the parking garage. I knew I was to mad to drive, but
I was the<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>damn designated driver. That
new realization enraged me even more, after news like that I needed a drink, a
very strong drink. But no! I had to be the flipping good guy! I had to open my
damn big mouth and volunteer to drive! So I got into the car. I knew I hadn’t
said a word to my two friends since I answered that phone call, and I knew they
were worried, but I couldn’t bring myself to say anything out loud. Saying it
out loud made it too real.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the beginning there
was denial. If I didn’t tell them, if I didn’t say it out loud maybe it would
go away. I remember thinking: “Maybe this isn’t even real, that’s got to be it,
I had to be dreaming. Or better yet, the doctors got it wrong. Test results got
messed up all the time, right? False positive, or whatever all that means. This
all has got to just be a big awful mistake”. I realized I was merging onto the
freeway and manage to shift my attention to my driving for the next thirty
minutes. For the next thirty minutes I turned on my radio so loud, you would
have thought your ear drums were going to burst. I needed to focus my thoughts
onto something else, because if I could ignore them, the whole thing would go
away. I just wanted to forget everything. As I was pulling into my driveway a
song came on the radio about cancer. It brought everything that I had been
forcing down, right back up to the surface. “There’s got to be something we can
do right? We can fight it, right”? That was what I kept telling myself.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the beginning there
was hope. I remember hoping for a miracle. Those things happen sometimes, why
not for my grandpa. I hoped for a drug, for a procedure, for a cure. I hoped
for him to not be afraid. I hoped he wouldn’t be in pain. As the months went by
I hoped he had made peace. I hoped he had time. I remember hoping the
treatments would help. I remember hoping he wouldn’t be in pain when they
didn’t. I hoped he would have more quality to his remaining life than quantity.
I hoped I would be strong enough to help him through this. I hoped I would be
able to hold things together for my nana, his wife of over fifty years. I hoped
that she would be able to live through this and be okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>After a few months I hoped I would make it
there in time. I flew on a plane to Florida to hold his hand until the end
came. When I saw him when I first arrived, I hoped that he had a good life. I
hoped that he was proud of the person I had become. I hoped he would recognize
me and know who I was. By some small miracle, he said my name, and I rushed
over to give him a hug and a kiss. I remember hoping that I wouldn’t cry in
front of him. I hoped that when he did pass, that our deceased family members
would be there to greet him, especially his son Chris. The hope that he would
see Chris again, gave me a feeling that maybe things would be okay again, one
day. I looked at my grandpa in his bed, he had fallen asleep from being so
tired, and I was grateful because the first tear started to leak out and I knew
there was no stopping what was coming.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the end there was
heartache. I walked out of his room, and out back onto the patio. I walked as
far as the screen would let me and sat down on the concrete ground and cried. I
felt my heart swell up and crack into a million tiny bits. I didn’t have the
energy or the will to try and be quiet, or to hide my grief. I had tried to be
strong and hold it in for too long and now the dam was cracked and everything
was spilling out. I felt cold, even though the Florida air was humid. I felt
alone, I felt helpless, and I felt broken. There were so many things I was
supposed to do with him that now would never happen. He was supposed to be at
my wedding, we were supposed to take a trip to all the WWII sites. My grandpa,
the one who photographed my whole childhood would be gone. I cried over the
loss of being robbed of all that. I cried over things that I knew would never
happen. I thought of my childhood and cried about how great of a person he was.
I thought about all the things he had done for people over the years. I thought
of how many people admired and cared about him. He showed up to every single
soccer game, without me even telling him I was playing, how did he do it? He
always knew. Even when I was older, he still showed up and continued to support
me. All of these memories and realizations made me cry even harder. I knew I
had his unconditional love, no matter what I did, and that brought a whole new
feeling of misery.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the end there was
regret. Every time I thought I was all cried out, I would think of something
else and start all over again. All the things I wished I had done better
invaded my mind. I wished I spent more time with him. I wished I came that Christmas
they invited me. I wished I learned to play golf like he wanted. I wished I
called him more. I would have traded anything in that moment to go back and do
the things I knew he wanted. I knew, none of it mattered to him, but knowing
that he would be gone and I could never fix my mistakes, left me feeling like a
failure. I wanted so badly for him to see me succeed, like he always wanted me
to. I knew he wouldn’t want me to act like this, and that realization allowed
me to calm down enough to stop the tears. I slowly picked myself up and tried
to pull myself together for my grandpa.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the end there was
booze. Over the next three weeks I tried to be strong enough for my nana, dad,
and myself. I watched one of my favorite people slowly deteriorate into
nothing. I sat in anguish and watched him get worse by the hour. Those three
weeks were the longest yet, of my existence. We tried to make a rotation so he
was never alone, but it took its toll on all three of us mentally. So we drank.
I am not condoning our behavior, but sometimes when the sorrow got to be too
strong, it was needed. We needed something to help us hold ourselves together
and then allow us to fall apart. The booze helped us feel those emotions that
we were trying to suppress. The booze helped us get things out. It wasn’t much
but we grasped at it. On a bad day my nana and I would sit and split a bottle
of wine, but those two glasses helped more than anyone could ever know. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">In the end there was
acceptance. In his last days I found myself wishing that he would pass quickly
and peacefully. It was at the point, where he was comatose and I knew that the
grandpa I knew and loved was already gone. I knew he was better off in heaven.
He was so tired of trying to fight and I think he only fought so hard because
of us. I didn’t want him in pain anymore. I didn’t want him to worry about us.
I wanted what was best for him, despite my own personal feelings for him to
stay. I accepted that I couldn’t go back in time and change anything. I
accepted that he loved me and that I would always love him. I knew he would
never be coming back. I accepted that I can’t control everything. I accepted
that we shouldn’t take things or people for granted. I accepted that I had to
say goodbye. Events like that make you realize how quickly things can change. I
accepted that at any moment everything could come crashing down. I accepted
that I should live my life to the fullest each and every day because tomorrow
isn’t guaranteed. I know now that time sometimes is limited. When I finally
allowed myself to come to these conclusions I felt better. I was able to say
goodbye to my grandpa and not feel like I was going to die. I wanted to make
the most of my life, for him. I allowed myself to mourn at his wake and
funeral, but after that I wanted to make him proud. In the beginning I thought
my world was going to end, but at the end I knew it had really just begun.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: "Times New Roman","serif"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 200%;">Yeah so that's all for now. Gotta go do MORE homework. Joy.</span></div>
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-41054516230730180282013-09-15T20:45:00.002-07:002013-09-15T20:45:40.547-07:00I Apologize.My intent was to post every couple of days. I am sorry that it has been so long since my last post. But my life has been crazy hectic and I just haven't had the time. I have Wednesday off this week and I plan on sitting down and catching everyone up. So do not fret =) ... Welp, I got to run and go do Creative Writing and Accounting homework while watching the Football game and keeping an eye on my fantasy score. Ugh. I miss summer already. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-49462262190946654362013-08-29T13:45:00.002-07:002013-08-29T13:45:35.314-07:00Everything Happens @ Once. Wicked. Wicked. Busy.<br />
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Ekkk! I have been all over the place the last so many days. I have completed 3 out of 5 of my fantasy football drafts. They went okay. Two of them took foreverrrrrr, and if you've done a draft before you know how frustrating this can be. The two I have left are probably the most important ones because one is my family draft. We all know family are some of the worst and best people to compete against. Can you say bragging rights? I have to redeem myself because last year, my whole team decided to get injured, which is turn ruined my fantasy season. So you can say I have a lot to prove this year. And the other draft I have is my work draft. Which consist of my bosses, co workers, and the regulars who frequent the sports bar that I work at. I won this league last year, but this year we have some new people and a new commissioner. I have to defend my title, which is a good amount of pressure to say the least. No one has won back to back years, but I intend to be the first. I'd like to mention the fact that I am also the lone female in this league. Now I have never done this many leagues at once before, so it is going to be quite the challenge for me this year. Hopefully, I can win all my money back and it will all be worth it. I am way to competitive, maybe I should learn to say no, or not care as much? But I can't. I feel the need, the addiction, the compulsion to compete and win. I'm sure the fact that: I grew up living with my dad, watching him play fantasy football every Sunday with him teaching me the ropes, didn't help my obsession. All this researching players, and going to drafts has really consumed my time this week. <br />
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I have the worst luck ever when it comes to cars. I just got my car back from the garage, recently and knew I had a few things wrong with it. Then the other day I wake up to go run errands, and lone behold, there is a giant crack on my wind shield. COME ON. I just can't catch a break. Now most people have this covered by their insurance. So I call mine, and of course it is not covered. UGH! I called a couple places to get some quotes and apparently, my kind of car, Hyundai, is a pain to put in a new wind shield, so its one of the most expensive to fix. Like seriously? So I am looking at over 200$ for a stupid piece of glass. You can say I am not to happy. So I have been picking up as many shifts at work as possible to try to make the extra cash to fix this.<br />
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School also starts next week which means I have to pay for my text books, I went online to check to see how much this tab was going to run me this semester and OMG its going to be like 800$. This is on top of my tuition. Apparently I should write text books because they are so flipping expensive. So to say I have a lot of expenses this month is an understatement. And of course I haven't been able to pick up as many shifts as I need because everyone else is low on money as well.<br />
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On top of all that jazz, I've had doctors appointments. I have Eczema. Which is a skin issue that is extremely itchy. I had to go for a psychical just so I could get a referral to go to the dermatologist. It is all time consuming and a pain in the ass. But I just cannot take the itching and the pain anymore. It is driving me insane.<br />
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Then since the summer is on its last leg, it means many of my television shows are wrapping up for the season so I have been trying to catch up and watch everything and watch the finales. Now I know many of my shows are stupid and many people must think they are not important but to me they're a guilty pleasure. Big Brother. Pretty Little Liars. Master Chef. Under the Dome. ect.<br />
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So that is why I haven't been on here much as of late. I have been pulled in every which direction. I have done some reading, not as much as I would like. But I just haven't had time to come on here and mention it. so I guess I should probably update everything now. This day off, is going to consist of a lot of catching up on the computer. Blogging, checking emails, updating status's ect.<br />
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<b>Finally to get to the books. </b><br />
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Last time I mentioned how I started the Brie After Graduation Series by Red Phoenix. Well I finished up to what is published. I am addicted. I love them. They are quick short reads, but man oh man do they pack a punch. Like I said before, there isn't much I can say on here that isn't for the eyes and ears of the 18+ crowd. But I will say this: they get your blood pumping. You quite possibly could get off just reading them. Not to mention, you can pull some erotic ideas to use in your sex life from this series. I enjoyed them so much I decided to go back and read the first series about Brie. Which you can buy in one book instead of nine separate. It is titled Brie Learns the Art of Submission. One of the reasons I enjoy these is because they are put into short stories where, it makes it easy to stop and start reading them. I am currently on story 2 in this book.<br />
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I am about half way through Ethereal Knights from Addison Moore, which I love but its hard for me to get through because I already know what happens. Yes I love the fact that it is from Logan and Gage's point of view instead of Skyla. But the only negative thing is, I have so many books I am trying to rush through, that this book is tending to get put on the back burner.<br />
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I did however start and finish The Solitude of Passion by Addison Moore. This book and I have a love/ hate relationship. I loved the book, then I hated the book, then I loved it again. It was back and forth and back and forth. It demands that you keep reading it. It demands that you choose a side. Over all I would recommend it because its different. I feel like you can easily place yourself in the situation, and it is easy to feel sympathy for the characters. Its not your average book. There are twist and turns. It really makes you emotional. I found myself, just as upset or as mad as the characters. Very well thought out.<br />
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I am still working on Enduring Light from Alyssa Rose Ivy, Fight or Flight by Jamie Canosa, the Percy Jackson series, The Binding, and The Mortal Instruments series.<br />
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Lastly, I decided to RE-READ Defiance by C.J. Redwine because the new book came out and I read the first one so long ago I feel as though I might forget some major details. I also am going to RE-READ The Girl of Fire and Thorns by Rae Carson for the same reasons. I am excited for these two new books so I am hoping I can get through these re-reads quickly.<br />
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<b>And all of this together makes for one very very busy Brittany. </b><br />
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Is anyone else feeling the pressure of the end of summer?!?! Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-50099107998131615452013-08-23T17:42:00.001-07:002013-08-23T17:42:41.945-07:00Get up for the Let DownI cannot believe how bad My New England Patriots did last night in their pre-season game versus the Lions. It was pitiful. I legit watched half the game and was like forget this crap, and started reading my books. (Of course I still had the game on the television.) I mean, I know they usually have one awful game in the preseason or the start of the season, so I guess its good that they got it out of their system, but it was awful to watch. They basically got their asses handed to them. I still have faith though. I am sure they will get their butts kicked in practice this week and fix everything that went wrong in the game last night.<br />
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On a better note I got a good amount of reading done yesterday. I started reading the Brie After Graduation Series by Red Phoenix, (which I think is the second series, I think there is one before this, at the training center, but the graduation book one was free so I am starting there). The books are great but def. for ages 18+, and not for the overly sensitive. I read the first two so far and I am currently on the third book which is called Brie's Russian Fantasy. I'm not going to say to much about these book on here, because I don't want to offend any one. I know these kinds of books are not for everyone and can be cause for a hot topic debate. But I enjoy them and feel as though they are at the very least worth being mentioned in my blog.<br />
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I also finished the fourth book in the Immortal Instruments Series, The City of Fallen Angels. I know people might hate me for saying this, but this is the first book that I felt let down. It is my least favorite by far. I felt like not much happens in this book until the last few chapters, and I struggled to make myself read the first three quarters of the book. Maybe its because I loved the other books so much that I set my expectations to high? I mean there is usually one book in every series that I like way less than all the others, so I am hoping that this is the case here.I am going to keep reading the series in hopes that the books do not start to decline.<br />
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Two words, Ethereal Knights. I guess I missed that Addison Moore put out a book from Logan and Gage's perspective. I just started it, only a few chapters in but it is just as GREAT as I expected it to be! =) I am also still working on the Percy Jackson and Velesi Trilogy books. As well as Enduring light. Just keeping you all updated!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-91108552499835439222013-08-22T13:09:00.002-07:002013-08-22T13:09:56.198-07:00"You could say I'm a Dreamer.... But I'm not the only one" (JL)<b>I may or may not have a problem.</b> The first step is always admitting it right? Well I kind of, sort of, stayed up until 6am finishing City of Glass. What is wrong with me? Have you ever been so drawn into a story that time passes without you noticing? One minute I was in a mystical place inside my book, then the next I was thirsty and went to take a sip of water, realizing I was in my room and was like "Oh jeeze its light outside, oh man birds are singing. damn what time is it, oh shit its 530am, I better hurry up an finish this book". HA I have issues. I'd like to sit here and tell you that this is a rare occurrence for me, but if I'm going to be honest, and I have no reason not to be, its not. It happens way more frequently than I should probably admit. I would like to blame my Pisces side and say its because of my dreamer mentality. I'd like to say that I have no choice in the matter and that I am cosmically bound to have my head in the clouds and to disappear into fantasy worlds. If any of you are a Pisces I am sure you can relate!<br />
Here I can prove it to you all, here are just a few quotes from websites about Pisces:<br />
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<i>"Women born under the Zodiac Sign Pisces, the Sign of the subconscious
mind, are mystical, imaginative, and need a regular<b> outlet for their
tremendous creativity</b>."</i><br />
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<i>"<b>These women have an inclination for</b> painting, performing arts, <b>writing</b>
or various other creative pursuits. They works are often an extension of
their personalities, reflecting how they are insides and what they
might be going through emotionally at that point in time."</i><br />
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<i>"</i><i>Represented by a pair of Fish, the Pisces are spiritual, selfless and focused on the soul’s journey towards salvation. But,<b> <u>so caught up they
are in their perfect, idealistic worlds that at times, they may have a
tough time distinguishing the fact from fantasy.</u></b>" </i><br />
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<i>"</i><i><b>These women are quite impractical and indecisive, and in most
likelihood, feel uneasy while dealing with the real world</b>. In order to
avoid pain and heartache, they would simply avoid confrontation and
bitter arguments. Run away or just go with the flow – either of the two
is their way dealing with the problems, on most occasions."</i><br />
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<i><a href="http://www.ganeshaspeaks.com/pisces/" target="_blank">To learn more about Pisces</a> </i> <br />
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So see I told you its not entirely my fault. I was born this way. I can't help but loose myself into a fantasy land. Even if I am nocturnal, maybe that's not my fault either? Anyways, I am still in love with the Immortal Instrument Series! They just keep getting better and better! I don't want to go into to much detail in case some of you plan on reading it but WOW. I of course, am going to start the next book today which is titled The City of Fallen Angels. I am beyond excited!<br />
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Also I feel that I have to mention that yesterday I made some homemade sangria, which I am wicked pumped about. (And before you say anything, YES I said WICKED, I am from Mass and we used this word frequently, so get over it.) The white sangria has and will be sitting in my fridge with fresh fruit in it for 48 before my friend and I drink it all Friday night. I do admit I had to taste test it today just to make sure it was good, and OMG it is delish! I am going to have to be careful because it taste so good, but I know for a fact that two glasses will get me a buzz. Wine with liquor kind of all hits me at once. Not in a bad way though ;)<br />
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Well then. I feel like I should get back to reading the 10 or so books that I have, considering it is my day off. Laters! Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-30938643225363548232013-08-21T18:23:00.000-07:002013-08-21T18:23:27.046-07:00Gage Oliver<u><b>Gage Oliver</b></u><br />
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From: Addison Moore's Celestra Series<br />
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Blood type: <br />
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Age: depends on which book but 18<br />
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Occupation: High School Student, helps dad in mortuary<br />
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Lives: On the Island of Paragon<br />
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Looks: Gorgeous baby blue eyes. Amazing body. Nice abs, chest, and arms. Dark hair. <br />
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Status: In Love with Skyla<br />
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Family: Mother is Emma. Father is Dr. Oliver. Uncle is Logan. Has a dog. <br />
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Fun powers: He can teleport you anywhere he can picture. Super speed and strength. Gets visions from the future<br />
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Animal: <br />
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Facts:Had a vision he was going to marry Skyla, so he waited for her (as in didn't swipe his V card). Plays on the football team. Sensitive, writes poetry. Smart. <br />
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If you think I left anything out that you would like added here LET ME KNOW!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-77808067792280692602013-08-21T18:14:00.001-07:002013-08-21T18:14:20.406-07:00Logan Oliver<u><b>Logan Oliver</b></u><br />
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From: Addison Moore's Celestra Series<br />
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Blood type: Celestra (mostly) <br />
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Age: depends on which book but 18<br />
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Occupation: High School Student, Bowling Ally Owner<br />
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Lives: On the Island of Paragon<br />
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Looks: Blonde hair, gorgeous body, six pack, great pecs and biceps. <br />
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Status: In Love with Skyla<br />
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Family: Parents are both deceased. Uncle to Gage. Brother to Dr. Oliver.<br />
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Fun powers: He can read your mind by touching your skin. He can time travel. Super speed and strength. <br />
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Animal: Lion<br />
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Fun Facts: Was a ladies man until the love of his life came around. Plays on the football team. Has a supervising spirit. Protector. Always has sex on the brain.<br />
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If you think I left anything out that you would like added here LET ME KNOW!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-56881120280955001012013-08-21T16:40:00.000-07:002013-08-21T16:40:03.153-07:00oops. sex. city. BOO! Then end of summer is upon us and I have to say I hate it. Its not that I mind going back into the real world because I really don't. Its the weather changing that bothers me. I don't know why I live in New England, when I hate the weather. I mean I feel lucky that I grew up here as a child and got to experience all four seasons. Building a snowman in the winter and coming inside to drink hot cocoa. Racking up pretty colored leaves in the fall and jumping into the piles. Seeing all the flowers come up for the first time in the spring. And of course my favorite, enjoying the sun in the summer and going to the beach. I cannot imagine living somewhere and having never seen the ocean, or never experiencing a snowstorm. So in that aspect I am glad I grew up here. BUT why am I still here? I mean I know I have almost all of my family here, and I am in love with the sports teams. But sometimes I just feel like I should be living somewhere else. <br />
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I can go into total zombie/ world apocalypse mode and choose somewhere to move based on that. Such as: The West Coast would not be a good choice because its too close to Asia, the ocean, and fault lines in the earth. There can be nuclear attacks, tsunamis, or earth quacks that could reek havoc on the entire west coast. The East Coast has sink hole problems, is very highly populated, has very cold winters, and could go completely under water. Many of the states along the east coast are prone to sink holes, whose to say that one day something wont set off a bunch of them and every one dies? It is also a high populated area, if anything were to happen it would be difficult to "bug out" of the area. Also if there was an epidemic it would spread faster on the east coast. Resources would be used up quicker because of all the people as well. If there is climate change there is a good chance according to researchers that the east coast could freeze like it did in the movie; The Day After Tomorrow. Also many people have predicted that the east coast would sink underwater in the future. So that rules out the east and west coast. Next I am going to cross off any state in the tornado valley area off the list. Just based on the fact that if there were an apocalypse, I'd have enough things to deal with, so I wouldn't want to have to worry about any damn tornadoes. So Basically that leaves me with Wyoming, Montana, North Dakota, South Dakota, and Minnesota. Now Wyoming is near the mountains but it also has yellow stone park, which could blow up because of old faithful. So I am going to cross that off the list, just to be safe. Also the southest part of South Dakota has a risk for earth quacks. Thus I think we should avoid there too. Minnesota has a few nuclear power plants, so I am going to cross that off the list as well. That leave us with North Dakota. I know it can get very cold there. So I would probably try to stay as south as possible and stick to the outskirts of the larger cities so I would have somewhere to get supplies. The only thing is, if the climate stays as it is now, the winters drop to 30 below sometimes. YIKES! But if it means survival, I am sure I would figure it out. Lots and lots of fire wood people.<br />
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Now see, to move based on apocalypse I would have to go somewhere even colder than where I am now. If I had my choice in the matter I would never pick to live there.(No offense if that's where you live, its just not my thing). I honestly have always wanted to live in some small town where every one knows everyone. I can see myself in Virgina, The Carolina's, Georgia, Florida, Alabama, Mississippi, Louisiana, Arkansas, Missouri, Tennessee, Iowa, Illinois, or Indiana. Now, I lived in Florida for a little while, but, I lived in Tampa. So it was still being in the city. I loved the weather there. I have been to Myrtle Beach in South Carolina, but I know that its very touristy. I have been to Williamsburg in Virginia and to Virginia beach, but again I know those areas are full of tourist. And I have driven through Georgia, it seemed very pretty. Other than that I have never really been to any of these states. Everything I know about them I know from books, movies, tv, or school. If anyone has any pros or cons to living there let me know!<br />
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Wow all of that came from a simple "I don't want summer to end". Sorry Folks. HA. Well at least I stay true to the name of this blog. <b>Because I certainly do ramble. </b><br />
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Now I have made an ooopsie. In my last post I had mentioned how I has started the Velesi Trilogy by L. Filloon. When I originally looked up the series the website said that book one was The Drifting. Well they gave me the WRONG information. So I started reading The Drifting, then I went on to the The Whispering, then I realized hey wait that was the last book. I thought this was a trilogy, what happened to the third book? So when I went and did more research I realized I started on book number TWO. I am an idiot. I do not know how I did not realize this. I kind of thought that they just through you into the book a little bit, but I still picked up on everything really quick. Finding out I started on book number two was a bit of a shocker. So I bought book one which is called The Binding, but I haven't read it yet. Book two and Book three were great though. The books are not hard to read, but the story line is great. I really enjoyed them. Now I'll have to read book one as an after thought lol. whoops. To late now, so o well.<br />
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I realize I haven't posted in a while so this post is going to be longer than usual. I have read a good number of books because the summer is coming to a close. So after reading 50 shades of better sex I got all of these recommendations on Amazon and Goodreads for all of these sex books. So I figured what the hell. Its not like I don't enjoy these books, I would be lying if I said I didn't. So I decided to start off with a cheap one just to see how I liked it. I was not disappointed. I purchased The Dom of My Dreams by M. F. Sinclair. I LOVED it. Now this book was actually a story, where as 50 Shades of Better Sex was more of a informational book. It is about a girl name Majorie who lives in a nice chic town in Mass. She works for a small publishing company who is trying to land a big hot shot writer. David Seton picks Majorie out of all of the editors to court him for his new novel. When they meet to discuss the book Seton, makes Majorie an offer. She knows she should refuse, but deep down inside she wants it. I for one, loved the book, just when I thought I knew where it was going, it threw something at me and surprised me. I would give this book a nine of out ten.<br />
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I kept seeing all of these previews for these movies coming out that are based on books. Now many of these books I had planed on reading.....eventually. But I am one of those people who hates to have plots spoiled. I figured that these movies are probably going to get a lot of media attention, considering the conclusion of the harry potter, and the twilight saga. So they basically pushed my hand. I decided to start the Mortal Instrument Series before it was to late. So book one is called City of Bones and it is by Cassandra Clare. I fell in love with this series after only reading one book. The book is about a girl name Clary and her best friend Simon. They go to this punkish/ gothic type of club one night and Clary has an odd experience. She notices a cute boy with blue hair and thinks about going to introduce herself, but then she notices him with another girl and she watches them slip into a back room. Shes is about to just blow it off but then she sees two guys with knives following the pair into the room. She points it out to Simon, but he doesn't see anything. Simon goes to alert the bouncers just in case. Clary decided not to wait and goes into the room to save the boy and girl. When she enters she sees the blue haired boy being tortured by the two men and girl. She tries to stop it but then is stopped when the group is surprised that she can see them. She quickly realizes that the blue hair boy is a demon. WTF. Clary doesn't know what to think or what to do. She is shocked. Simon shows up with the bouncers and it is just Clary alone in an empty room. The next day Clary sees one of the boys again and follows him outside of the coffee shop. She remembers him being the one they called Jace. She wants him to explain things to her. Mid conversation she gets a frantic call from her mother, screaming at her NOT to go home and to find her "uncle" Luke immediately. She is very stubborn and worried about her mother so she ignores her mothers pleas and takes off running to her house to figure out what the hell is going on. She doesn't realize it but Jace secretly follows her because he is worried and doesn't know what just happened. When she arrives home she knows something isn't right. Her mother is no where to be found, and the condo is a mess. Its then that Clary is attacked, and at the very moment is brought into a whole new world that she didn't even knew existed. She manages to fight off her attacker but is hurt in the process. She awakes in Jace's arms and they try to flee from more attackers. This all happens in a matter of a couple chapters. The book just gets better and better from there. This is a book of discovery and bravery. I am so sucked in.<br />
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As soon as I finished this book, I needed to know more. So of course I went and purchased book two (even though it was 2am). Book two is City of Ashes. It is just as good as book one if not better! I would most defiantly recommend these books. Nine out of Ten! I finished this book the next day and again needed to hear more about Jace and Clary so I went on and got book number three which is The City of Glass. I only intended to finish book one immediately because of the movie release. But after reading just book one I am addicted. I have no doubt that I am going to fly through the whole series. I am currently on book three and have yet to finish, but as soon as I am done here, you can bet that's what I will be doing. <br />
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I am also currently reading The battle of the Labyrinth which is part of the Percy Jackson Series I had started. And I also started Flight or Flight by Jamie Canosa. And don't forget I still have to read book one of the Velesi Trilogy which is The Binding. So I have many things to read before back to college. Also to note: the next book in the After Glow Trilogy was released (I believe). So I will have to get that soon as well. So much to do, so little time. Oh AND fantasy football drafts start this week. So I am going to be a busy busy girl. Because I still haven't even factored in work. Pff work.<br />
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If you've read any of these books and are as addicted as I am let me know!!! Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-42340455981783708772013-08-15T20:23:00.001-07:002013-08-15T20:23:22.418-07:00I'll color and drink beer if I want to!Okay people. I don't think I mentioned this, but my car has been out of commission for the last two weeks. I was going crazy without it. I felt like I was back to being a freshman in high school. Having to ask people for rides and having people pick me up and stuff. NOT FUN. Talk about loosing your independence. The good news is..... I finally got my car back! (everyone clap and cheer). The bad news is they couldn't figure out the electrical problem that is wrong with it. So basically, they said I have to drive it around until it breaks and then call them right away.....ARE YOU SERIOUS? Clearly these men do not know me. They expect me to drive a car knowing it will eventually kick the bucket? Hello paranoia and anxiety! Apparently we are going to be friends for a while. UGH (End Rant)<br />
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On a good note, last night my friend Court (whom has a baby), and I decided we need a stress free night, to unwind. So what did we do you may ask? Well firstly she left the baby at home with the daddy and came over. Two ladies, on hump day, looking for something do. Let me make it known that we are broke. So don't judge us. We decided to go to the party store. Because how can you not have fun checking out ridiculous things at a party store. My favorite part had to be all the crazy hats and mardi gras mask. Then we got the brilliant idea to make homemade cookies. But no, that wouldn't be enough for us we had to make these cookies to put on top of our giant sundaes. So we went to the supermarket and bought all of the good stuff. But of course we had to make a pit stop on the way home for beer, because lets be honest beer makes everything more fun. To our surprise Shipyard Pumpkin is already in stores folks... FYI. I stuck to my beer of choice which is Bud Light Lime... but my friend Court got pumpkin head. We then came back to my place. I set up my lap top to play jams from our early high school days, we popped open beers and got to work baking cookies. We had a blast making obnoxious videos of our horrible singing. When all the cookies were in the oven we decided we wanted to color. Why? Because coloring is a wicked pissah stress reliever especially if your drinking. Your never to old to take a break and have some simple fun. I actually highly recommend it everyone in a while. Dance in the rain. Jump on a trampoline. Color. Sing into a brush. Dance like no ones watching. Do something that will make you laugh.<br />
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I am a firm believer in laughter. Laughing makes things better. It makes the world seem less cruel. You can't take life to seriously, or you'll never be happy. I think people need to make time to relax and just have fun. Just because your an "adult" with responsibilities doesn't mean you have to act like you have a stick shoved up your butt. Whens the last time you did something stupid and reckless just because it made you happy? .............Just something to think about.<br />
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Yesterday I finished off The Titans Curse. The books are slowly getting better as they progress, but they are still, not my favorite. I also finished up 50 Shades of Better Sex. Now that was a good book. I found it easy to follow and found it to be very real. The book isn't for everyone but if your have a bit of an adventurous side, I'd recommend it. I then read Cinderella by Jenni James. Its slightly different from the original but doesn't have many variations. I wasn't very impressed. It was an easy read though. And a great romantic short story. <br />
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Today I started The Velesi Trilogy by L. Filloon. Book 1 is titled The Drifting. I am about a quarter of the way through this book. So far I like it. It seems like its this new world, with elfs, orcs, mortals, and different types of magical beings. I'm digging that its a new world for me to discover and learn about. I will post more when I get further into the book.<br />
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Lastly, I joined a new community. Which I am pretty excited about . I joined the 20 Something Bloggers. I have already got some good feedback from people, and made a few friends. Its pretty great. Night peeps!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-81163926026729882902013-08-13T18:42:00.001-07:002013-08-13T18:48:06.684-07:00Gods. Sex. & Love.Percy Jackson is an interesting young boy. I read through the Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan quite quickly. The book was good. I still can't help but think of Harry Potter though when I read it. But it does have a completely different story line. I guess its just the similarity that its a young boy who is discovering a whole new world while him and his friends fight through dangerous obstacles to do what it right.<br />
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Nevertheless once I start a story I feel the need to know how it ends. So I leaped right into book 2 which is called The Sea of Monsters. This book was better than the first but, still wasn't all that great. Maybe because its a pretty easy read. I find the greek mythology and gods aspect pretty interesting. I wish I knew more about it. Sometimes it can be a little hard to follow in the book if you don't have prior knowledge of the greek gods. I also find myself getting frustrated by the female characters. I can't put my finger on why, but the only one I actually like is Annabeth.<br />
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I wish there was more set up for the background of the book, or that it was at least explained in more detail because that whole aspect of the book is the most interesting. I also think it would add more to the actual story. Don't get me wrong I like it, but I think it has the potential to be so much better. I am currently reading the 3rd book in the series The Titan's Curse.<br />
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I decided I needed to break this series up so I am/was reading more than one book at a time, which I usually don't do. I finished reading Some One To Love by Addison Moore. OMG. I loved it. She did not fail to disappoint. This book was almost every college girl's fantasy. It screamed sex. It was hott and made me want more. Cruise Elton sounds like the perfect man.(He will DEF be on my wanted list). I want to fall in love with a man like him. All I could think of was sex, sex., love, sex. After finishing reading this book all I wanted to do was read more sex. I didn't get my fill. So I decided to try and read 50 shades of better sex by Melinda Holmes. So far it its very insightful, and pretty sexy. I can't lie, it pretty much a walking hard on. But it works because I can switch between that and Percy Jackson. <br />
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I'd like to finish this post with a question for you all.<br />
How do I make blogging friends? I try to go out and follow blogs and leave comments, but I have yet to receive one comment, on my blog. Not that I care, because I will write regardless. But I am actually surprised that I have as many page views as I do, but no comments. How does that happen. Hmm I am confounded.I guess its no different than my real life. ha. Oh well I am better off do things for myself anyways, rather than to do if for others. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-83040780391368085292013-08-11T18:50:00.001-07:002013-08-11T18:50:57.683-07:00Evanescent by Addison Moore Book Review<b>Evanescent (The Countenance Trilogy Book 2) by Addison Moore</b><br />
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Description:<br />
<i>"<span id="freeText10652730829309580270">Sixteen-year-old Laken
Stewart died last summer. Her resurrection at the hands of the
Countenance hasn’t run smoothly. With the memory of her past life still
firmly intact, Laken moves deeper into the Countenance organization in
an effort to free her mother and sister from the deadly Celestra
tunnels. <br /><br />The love she feels for her boyfriend, Wesley, is
compromised when gorgeous Cooper Flanders teams up with her in the fight
to free their families. Old bonds are slowly severed as new ones are
galvanized. <br /><br />Wesley is sure that what he and Laken share is
special but when it becomes apparent that she’s reading his mind, he’s
determined to get the bottom of her true intentions. And one thing is
for sure, the Celestra that’s giving her these powers is going to have
to pay. Wesley’s love for Laken takes him to the dark places he never
believed existed and what he discovers dismantles his world as he knows
it."</span></i><br />
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<span id="freeText10652730829309580270"><u><b>9 out of 10 stars for me</b></u></span><br />
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I am in love with her books. I get sucked in and want to be a part of
this world. Even though it is full of danger and lies I do not care. I
want in. I fall asleep reading her books and dream about the characters
being my friends. Sad, I know. I want Laken, and Skyla to team up with
me and figure things out. I want to date Logan, Gage, Cooper, Wes, and
Marshall. I get so wrapped up in these books that I drool over them. I
know that its not a healthy relationship to have, but it is what it is.
If pre teens can be twihards and obsess over sparkling vampires, then I
as a 23 year old, can obsess over nephilim. If your sitting there
reading this and are saying "what the hell is this girl rambling on
about" then please go check it our for yourself you will not be
disappointed. addison moore. That is the authors blog. She puts together
an incredible world. PS if your going to start reading her books start
off with the Celestra series. <br />
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This book was great. It made me
fall in like with Cooper, he is boyfriend of the week for me. Hes just
that nice honest boy that you want to fall in love with. I think this
book really expressed the characters personalities. I truly feel like I
know them. I love to hate Kresly and Grayson. I want to love and protect
Marky. I want to help Casper and Flynn reunite. This book really draws
you in and helps you relate to all the characters. I also really enjoyed
how it started to link up to the Celestra series. I think the way it
was worked in very well and blended. It clarifies many mysteries from
that series. I love the way the book ended, yet part of my was also
upset. I wanted that to happen in the beginning, but now I am scared for
Cooper. I don't want to spoil the end for anyone so its hard for to to
convey this right. The end is good and it is a cliff hanger. I cannot
wait for the last book to come out. I only hope that Laken makes the
right choice. I would recommend this book 100%.
Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-4985703841197042562013-08-11T14:11:00.002-07:002013-08-11T14:17:16.425-07:00SatisfactionI am pretty happy, that I finally figured out how to add the follow this site button to my blog. I don't think you all realize how hard I have been trying to figure this out. I am not so good with computer tech things. Yes I can type and navigate the internet, but setting up a website/blog is an entirely different battle. It has taking me hours to try to get my page to look the way I want and it has not been easy. It still could be better, but I think I'm getting there. I am hoping now that I have a follower button that my friends can finally start to follow my blog. Not that I have blogging friends, because realistically I don't. But its nice to have the option just in case. I don't know how all you fellow bloggers do it. Some of you have sites that look AMAZING. I envy you! I am lucky I figured out how to change the colors and fonts.<br />
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Anyways. I discovered a new obsession last night. a fellow blogger, <a href="http://livedonethousandlives.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">livedonethousandlives</a> was nice enough to give me some advice, since I am new to the blogging world. One thing that was recommended was to join as many communities and sites as possible to connect with people. One site that was mentioned was <a href="https://www.goodreads.com/" target="_blank">goodreads</a> . I had never heard of this site before, so I went and checked it out. OH MY LANTA. I was not disappointed. I am most definitely obsessed. I cannot tell you how many times I have wished that there was a way to keep track of all the books I have read, am reading, or want to read. Now I found it! Now it will probably take me a while to go in there and add all of the books I have read. But I think it is worth it. I can also review and rate books on that site as well. I am very excited about it. <br />
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After I got sick of playing around on goodreads I decided to get back to reading. So last night I finished off The King's Guard: A Girl of Fire and Thorns Novella by Rae Carson. It was okay. I think I would have enjoyed it more if I went back and refreshed myself from the other books. Because I remember loving the series but I have read SO MANY books since then, that I found myself forgetting the details. I think I might go back and skim through the other books and then re read this book to fully appreciate it.<br />
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Next I read the second book in Addison Moore's Countenance Trilogy which is titled Evanescent. I am in love with her books. I get sucked in and want to be a part of this world. Even though it is full of danger and lies I do not care. I want in. I fall asleep reading her books and dream about the characters being my friends. Sad, I know. I want Laken, and Skyla to team up with me and figure things out. I want to date Logan, Gage, Cooper, Wes, and Marshall. I get so wrapped up in these books that I drool over them. I know that its not a healthy relationship to have, but it is what it is. If pre teens can be twihards and obsess over sparkling vampires, then I as a 23 year old, can obsess over nephilim. If your sitting there reading this and are saying "what the hell is this girl rambling on about" then please go check it our for yourself you will not be disappointed. <a href="http://addisonmoorewrites.blogspot.com/" target="_blank">addison moore</a>. That is the authors blog. She puts together an incredible world. PS if your going to start reading her books start off with the Celestra series. <br />
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So today I started to read the Percy Jackson series. I am about five chapters into The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan. So far it reminds me of Harry Potter except instead of magic its Greek Olympic Gods. I'd name a few Gods but apparently saying their name is very powerful. I'm actually going to go dive into that book right now. Laters.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-80674980510732833172013-08-09T17:43:00.001-07:002013-08-09T18:06:02.158-07:00Football is back =)Yipppppie =)<br />
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So this is very unbook related BUT I have to write about it anyways because it has put a giant smile upon my face today. New England Patriot Pre Season Football started tonight. I got to break my jerseys out of storage and wear them for the first time this season. I am currently sporting my Tom Brady jersey. I do have to say I am a little anxious watching the game because of all the rookies on our team this year, but I have faith that we can pull it together this season and be a force to reckon with.<br />
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Anyways I know this isn't supposed to be a blog about sports, but I just cannot help it. My love for books and sports goes hand and hand. I apologize in advance for all of the sports related outbursts that I know WILL occur this football and hockey season. If you know me, you know I just cannot help it.<br />
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I actually just read a pretty great article last night about being a female sports fan. It talks about how its tough to be a die hard sports fan and be a female, because people don't take you seriously.<br />
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<a href="http://www.buzzfeed.com/kristinchirico/23-most-annoying-things-about-being-a-female-sport-bwwj?bffb" target="_blank">23 most annoying things about being a female sports fan</a><br />
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My favorite from this article would have to be number 13. which states "Shirts that forgo the teams actual colors for trendier ones, because obviously women will not buy sports apparel if they think their teams colors look bad on them." This is most def. wicked annoying. Like come on dude, why am I going to buy a patriots shirt that is bright yellow or pink? Our teams colors are friggan blue, white, and red. There is no reason why you have to buy a different color shirt, in fact I will be bold and flat out say you look stupid. If I see you at a Pats game in a trendy color shirt I will automatically label you as a "band wagon or fake" fan. Any true female sports fan will be wearing their teams colors. The ONLY exception to this rule is during October for breast cancer awareness, then and only then can you wear your pink shirts and me not judge you. <br />
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I also have to mention number 16 & 17 just because they are two of my pet peeves about being a female and loving football. 16. Has to do with Thanksgiving. Can you see where this is going? "When you're making Thanksgiving dinner with your family and your female relatives won't let you watch football with the dudes." <br />
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Like come on people. I totally get this. And I am so happy it made it into this article. If I take the time to help you cook the darn bird, at the very least you can allow me to watch the game and check my fantasy scores. Just because I am a woman does not mean I belong in the kitchen. I can drink beer with the men in front of the big screen and be totally happy doing it. And this brings us to number 17. "When you tell someone you're a fan of a team and they make you take a goddamn quiz to prove it". Ladies you know exactly what this means if you like sports. I can completely relate to this. When I read this I legit was nodding my head and yelling YES I HATE THAT. I work at a sports bar, so this happens to me ALL the time. I mention oh I love the Patriots and instantly a guy will be like "oh yeah, name one player other than tom brady...whose number 75....name three different positions.... whose the coach...whose the owner...name our kicker.....its like dude come on people. Hmm lets see. Shane Vereen number 34, Vince Wilfork is number 75, quaterback, wide receiver, tight end, running back, kicker, offensive line, safety, Bill, Kraft, gostkowski is the kicker, mesko is the punter. FU. I actually know my shi*t now back off dude. Its the most annoying thing ever. But yeah I thought the article was great and if your a female you should def. read it.<br />
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Anyways sorry about that, I tend to go off about things that I am passionate about. But back to reading. Last night I read Veer which is book two in the Clayton Falls series by Alyssa Rose Ivy. It was good I love Gavin in it. This series really makes me want to move to a small town that is on the beach. I wouldn't mind one day settling down in a small town where everyone knows everyone. I think it would be interesting. Sometimes I wish I could take off and settle down someplace where no one knows me at all and just totally start over and meet new people. When I read this series it makes me feel like its possible. I know it obviously wouldn't be that easy, but life isn't easy in general. Sometimes the books I read make it seem like if your not happy you should take a chance and pick up everything and move and make a big change. I don't know if this is just my dreamer side that relates to this and thinks it could work out and is a good idea. Or if its completely insane and a rash thing to do. Sometimes I think I debate things to death. Like I go over consequences too much. Would I be better off if I just took a leap and went with it? I don't know. I think I might be the most indecisive person I know. It'd be nice, and I think almost refreshing, to just be impulsive and do something without thinking it through. Does anyone get what I mean? Or am I the only person who thinks to much for their own good. I guess I'll never know. Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-17722676925571602132013-08-08T19:29:00.002-07:002013-08-08T19:29:45.668-07:00Welp, no powerball win for meWell hello all. As much as I wished it, I failed to win powerball last night. Thus I am still a broke college student. Bummer. On the bright side I can continue to spend all of my hard earned money on books that I just need to read. So, I couldn't sleep the other night. You know what that means people. I Read, Read, and umm ate then read some more. I finished Summer of Frost of the L.P. Dover forever fae stories. Now I have to sit and anxiously await the release of the next book. Then in the early morning hours I moved onto Beautiful Beast by Cindy C Bennett. When I finished that book and then still couldn't sleep I decided to read another Alyssa Rose Ivy book, since I adore her books so much. I started reading her Clayton falls books which starts off with Derailed. Now it was light outside but for some reason I still couldn't fall asleep so I decided to read the companion novel to the lonely, Lost Boy by Tara Brown. I fell asleep a little more than half way through the book. I a woke a few times and was not shocked that I actually dreamed about the characters from my book. You know your obsessed with characters when you dream about them lol. Is it bad that I was disappointed that it was only a dream? Do other people wish they lived in their books as much as I do?<br />
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Sometimes I think I belong in a book. I dream way to much. Maybe I would be further along in life if I didn't spend my time in the clouds dreaming. Sometimes I think the only people who get me, or who can relate to me are in the books that I read. Do other people feel the same way? Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-27120756718835300412013-08-05T19:09:00.000-07:002013-08-05T19:09:09.785-07:00Less Reading, More Writing. So I have to say I am a little disappointed in myself. Why, you ask? Well let me tell you why. It is already August. Ugh which means the summer is starting to come to an end before back to school, or for me back to college and work, and the real world. I just feel like when its summer I can blow things off and do what I want, but during the rest of the year I have to be an adult and crack the whip, and handle my responsibilities. But to answer the question it is because when I get to this point in the summer, I realize I haven't read all the books I wanted to yet. Which then leads me to go on a reading binge. I literally sit and do nothing for days, other than read. Which in turn leads to me neglecting my writing. Now how am I suppose to start a blog, if I can't even bother to put a book down and write a post? How do you fellow authors or book reviewers out there do it? How do you find a balance between reading and writing? If your anything like me a good book series can consume you for days. I always feel the pressure at this point in the summer, because I know I don't have as much time to read during the rest of the year.<br />
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I made a goal for 2013, and it was to read 125 books this year. Which basically means I have to get through the majority of them this summer. Hence my MIA. I haven't counted the number up yet, I am a little nervous that I won't be on track. But in the next few days I'll have to buckle down and count how many I've read so far this year. How many books do people usually read in a year anyways? Is my goal to low, to high? I don't really know how I compare to other people. None of my friends are obsessive about reading like I am. <br />
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Today I finished the final book in the Blemished series by Sarah Dalton its called The Unleashed. I have a hate love relationship with finishing series. Its like the best feeling in the world but also the worst. Its the best because you finally find out what happens, and you finally know the conclusion and hopefully things worked out the way you wanted. But its the worst because you know its the end of the characters you've grown to love so much. Its an end. You know you'll never get to live moments with those characters again, never relate to them or rout for them. It can be very sad. So when I finish a book series off and I know there isn't going to be another book I almost get a feeling of disappointment. I get so attached to characters that I don't like to see them go. Maybe admitting that I have attachments to fictitious characters makes me crazy, but I thinks that is why I like reading so much. It takes you away to another place, and lets you forget about everything in the real world. If I could make friends with the characters I meet in books I totally would. And it would make me way happier. <br />
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So even though I anxiously await the release of books that I love, I also know that once I read them I can't take it back. You can never get the feeling of reading a book for the first time back. Sure you can reread it and get the same emotions, but its never the same as the first time. The first time you do something is always the most exciting.<br />
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I guess I'm just one of those NEED TO KNOW NOW people. I cannot wait. I don't care if I stay up for hours to find out the end result. Maybe its something I should work on? Or maybe its just part of who I am.<br />
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Anyways I am trying to figure out which book I am going to read tonight. Suggestions? Let me know.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-22479264000208230202013-08-02T20:41:00.002-07:002013-08-02T20:41:25.209-07:00Trying to get BackSorry people. So much has been happening the last couple weeks. As much as I would have liked, I haven't had time to post. So I went camping in the middle of no where in Maine. Point Sebago. I am not really a person who likes camping but my boyfriend and his family invited me so I went. I figured it wouldn't be that bad because they had wifi, BUT of course the wifi didn't work while I was there. So I didn't have time to post. Good news is I got to read a bunch of books with cuddling up by the fire and cruising on the boat. I read two Tara Brown books, Imaginations and Reborn. Both were pretty good. If I had to pick between the two I would def go with Reborn because I really enjoyed the other books in that series. Then I started a new series that Amazon recommended J. L. Weil its the Luminescence Trilogy only the first two books are out so I started up with those. I really love them and cannot wait for the third book to come out. I don't want to really go into details about the books because I am hoping to soon start writing my reviews. I finished reading the Imdalind series by Rebbecca Ethington, the last book named Scorched Treachery, finalllllly came out so I had to finish it ASAP so I could finally know the ending. AND even more exciting a new book in the Crescent Chronicles came out its titled Found and it is by Alyssa Rose Ivy. I am obsessed with this series. I cannot wait until she puts out something else for me to read. Since it is summer an all I decided to read another book by her as well called The Hazards of Skinny Dipping. It was a cute fluff summer book to read out in the sun. Then I switched up a bit and read Collateral Damage by Katie Klein. Then I finished off the week reading the first two books in the Forever Fae series by L. P. Dover. And that basically sums up what I did on my vacation. I read those books and drank beer. Fun times. What books have you all read on your summer vacations? I want to hear!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-29355883809089352612013-07-27T15:54:00.000-07:002013-07-27T15:54:13.791-07:00Camping is Exhuasting... ughSorry people, been on vacation for the last week. Was camping up in Maine. They said they had WIFI, so I brought my lab top so I could post, but unfortunately there was no signal. So my bad.<br />
I need to unpack, then I'll update tonight.... TO BE CONTINUED.Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-58436600390325786172013-07-18T21:33:00.001-07:002013-07-18T21:33:29.905-07:00Day 6 of the Challenge: Describe how you purchase books?Why Hello peoples!<br />
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So I am on day six now of the blogger challenge. Day six ask for you to describe how you purchase books?<br />
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So this kind of gets broken down into three categories for me.<br />
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The first category being how I purchase my e-books for my kindle. If I am buying a new book for my kindle chances are it is either a continuation of a series I have already started OR it was suggested to me by Amazon recommendations. I have found many of my favorite series from taking a chance on the recommendations made to me by Amazon. It is a very rare occurrence that I buy a book off of those recommendations and do not enjoy it. So I usually skim through the recommendations and pick four or five and then I read the book descriptions. I then pick one that I think I am most in the mood for.<br />
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The second category would be books I loved reading so much on my kindle that I just had to go and buy them in paperback or hardcover<br />
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The third and final category would be books I buy for the first time in a store. Usually I stop in a store and check out the books section. I tend to look at the romance/ YA/ paranormal/ new titles sections. I then see if any cool covers catch my eye and if they do I usually pick them up and read the back. If the back of the book sounds good I buy it, if not I put it back. I usually take a peak at books I've heard about as well and take a chance to read a few pages to see if it is something that I would enjoy.<br />
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So that is basically how I choose what books I buy.<br />
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I have been slowly but surly learning to put this site together. I am hoping that I am getting better at this day by day. I am not quite sure though because I have yet to receive any type of comment or feed back from anyone. If any one has any suggestions PLEASE let me know. Also I think I am going to attempt to review my first book soon. If you have any helpful tips on the DO's and DON'Ts of book reviewing please share.<br />
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ThanksAnonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-91734442974526775522013-07-17T20:17:00.001-07:002013-07-17T20:17:11.309-07:00Day 5 Challenge: Recommend A Tear Jerker Day five people, recommend a tear jerker...oh boy this is tough. I feel like so many books make me cry. Most books that make me cry probably aren't even intended to.<br />
If you want a real tear jerker though I'd probably have to recommend Nicholas Sparks books. I balled my eyes out at the end of Dear John and the Guardian. Like literally couldn't read because I was sobbing. Message in a Bottle and The rescue got to me as well just not as bad as the other two.<br />
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Another book that had me crying hysterically was The Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffnegger.<br />
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The Chemical Garden Series by Lauren DeStefano got to me too, I think because I was a girl and I could picture myself in their situation.<br />
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Any book by Maria V Snyder usually gets to me because I love her characters, whether its the Healer Series, the Glass Series or the Poison Study Series, they are all such good books.<br />
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I basically cry when ever I read any of the Vampire Diary books by L. J. Smith, they are so good and I get so attached to the characters.<br />
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Also the Maximum Ride Series by James Patterson really got to me because of the "kid" factor.<br />
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The Hunger Game books by Suzzane Collins made me cry because I just felt so bad, it seemed like it was one thing after another in that book.<br />
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There are tons more but those are my favorites that I would recommend people read if they haven't already.<br />
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What is your favorite book that has made you ball you eyes out?<br />
Let me know I would love to read it!Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7465650058734679310.post-62017093942391224842013-07-16T21:36:00.002-07:002013-07-16T21:45:16.089-07:00Day 3 & Day 4: Who are your blogging BFFS? & What is the last book you flung across the room?Heylo everyone, or should I say no one because I am pretty sure no one actually reads my blog yet lol. I guess that is besides the point, I started this blog more for me anyways. Not that I don't want followers, I would love it, I just don't expect it, that's all. Anyways, I'm rambling. I had started a project a few weeks back to make my own corn hole boards from scratch. For those of you who are sitting there saying to yourself WTF is that, well you are missing out. Corn hole is a set of two board with a hole in them. You have two teams of two and throw bean bags full of corn into the holes. It is kind of like horseshoes. If you want to check it out look here <a href="http://www.playcornhole.org/" target="_blank">http://www.playcornhole.org/</a> . Anyways today I finished painting them in a New England Patriots colored theme of course. They actually look pretty legit. I'm happy with it. But anyways that took up most of my day, which is why I didn't written anything earlier. I'll post a picture when their all done, not that anyone cares, but just because.<br />
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Now, to the point.... Day3 and Day4 of the Blogger Challenge. I decided to put three and four together because I knew my answer for Day 3 wouldn't be very interesting.<br />
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So Day3 is Who are your blogging BFFS?<br />
Well I just started blogging and I don't actually have any other friends that blog. Nor do I really read any other blogs yet. I just started following some blogs and reading them but I haven't gotten through all of them yet. If anyone want to become blogging BFFS let me know. Or if anyone has any blog suggestions for me to read, I am all ears.<br />
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On to Day4: What is the last book your flung across the room?<br />
See now this question I can answer, and I actually really enjoy it. I cannot tell you how many times I have wanted to fling a book or my kindle across the room. Sometimes I catch myself and I just scream instead. But I recently actually got so mad that I lost my composer and I flung my kindle across the room, thankfully it hit a couch and didn't break. But the book that pushed me over the edge was A Game of Thrones book. I forget if it was book two or three because I read all five in a row on my kindle... and I tend to blend series books together when I read them on my kindle. Because I cannot see the actual book. But I think it was book three which is titled A Storm of Swords. If you have yet to read Game of Thrones let me tell you, your are most def. missing out. They are the best books I have ever read. Usually you can kind of figure out the majority of the book by reading it, or at least I usually can. But these books are unreal. What ever you think is going to happen doesn't, characters you think are safe always get killed. These books are nuts. Anyways I don't want to give anything away in case someone wants to start reading these books, but when I read the red wedding scene I through my kindle across the room. If you've read these book you know exactly what I am talking about and why I threw my kindle. I actually took a whole week off of reading because I was so mad and upset. I've never gone a whole week without reading since I graduated from high school, so its a big deal. I was that upset and frustrated. So I guess if you want to know more you have to read the book or just google it lol.<br />
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So if I do have any readers out there...Whats the last book that you've flung across the room? If you have more self control than I and haven't done that...then Whats the last book that mad you extremely mad, frustrated, or upset?Anonymoushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02720694692301113352noreply@blogger.com0